Medicated bliss

I have been down lately, not as down as many times before, but still down. Breaking up is so hard emotionally. Soemtimes i feel strong and determined to move on and then other times i seem to be a mess, wondering how i am ever going to get this guy out of my head and heart.

He has still been contacting me and that makes things hard and yet I can't quite manage to stop answering his calls. He just makes small talk, but manages to throw in the "I was so in love with you", notice the past tense.

He is having a ball, socializing each weekend with his friends (male and female), he has met a few new girls which he has told me as "sooooo nice". I am sure he does this to just hurt me...he then goes on to say "there is nothing going on, i am not interested in them, I am hurt and I still love you"...blah blah blah.

How do i move on when he is stabbing me in the heart ever few days and I am stupid enough to let him do this to me. I need to toughen the fuck up and stop all contact.

I actually just sent email to him saying that it is best that we dont contact each other, hurts too much. so hopefully that is that.

Hopefully