ONE DILEMMA DOWN, NEW ONE ON THE HORIZON

Well another relationship down the drain....that's three in my lifetime.  My ex husband, MD and now SS.

The whole relationship with SS has always been weird,  we were best friends for a few years...cried on each others shoulders,  got drunk together,  talked everyday.  It was fantastic.

He was going through two or three different relationships (two at the same time),  and I was his rock.

Well of course the two girls found out and he came running to me. Devastated and I being the "friend", helped him through it.

We hooked up,  he told me he wanted to be with me etc etc etc.  I spoke to him about not wanting to ruin our friendship (deep down I was in love with him), he promised me that the other girls were forgotten and that he wanted to be with me. That he loved me.

So off we go on a funking stupid whirl wind relationship battle.  

I didn't trust him !!!! He hid his phone !!!!  He was cold towards me !!!!

So after putting up with that for nearly two years and him just treating me really ordinary - not an ounce of love to be seen.  I met someone else.

I hooked up with this guy, who I don't love, who I don't want to be with,  who I used...yes I used him.  He just treated me so well,  omg he loved me. 

Finally I split with SS, told him it wasn't working and now Im over it.   PS he hooked up with the ex as soon as I ended it....so I can only assume it never really ended with her in the first place......

So today I am single, well officially single...but the hook-up-guy, is smittened and now I feel like crap.   How do I not hurt a guy who has been so bloody nice to me ?????? 

My NEW dilemma !!!!!!!!!!!