One month later

I can't believe it has been one month since my last post...i must really get back into this blogging stuff as it does make me feel alive.

Things in the last month have been depressing, MD and I stopped talking completely and he threatened me with horrible things and blah blah blah, you have all heard this before.

Then about two-three weeks ago he emailed me and then txt'd me and before you know it we were back in bed together.

He really wants to work things out but my heart is just not in it anymore. I do love him but he has admitted that his daughter hates me and so does his parents, that is upsetting for me but worse then that is the fact that my parents and friends dont like him.

It was my birthday yesterday and I had dinner with a group of friends and my parents, well i didn't invite him as it would have been uncomfortable. My friends do not know that i am seeing him, well i think they do, but i haven't spoken to any of them.

That is killing me, that it is now just US, we have no one who will accept our relationship even if we did decide to give it another go.

It is over.

He is coming around a lot and being very very nice and I haven't had the guts to tell him that it is not going to work, i just can't do it.....how do i say to him that because of our family and friends it is not going to work not to mention our terrible history.

I guess i just say it like that!

Okay i must toughen up and end this nightmare.

I am scared of being alone but i guess i am making myself more alone by staying with him as eventually my friends will back right off and I will be left with no one.

I must end this relationship.