Miss Nothing Happening

I was feeling strong last night and was going to speak to MD about us and how we can't keep seeing each other. We are sneaking around and seeing each other without our friends knowing and it has to stop. it is not going to work out. Well he turns up with his dogs and I can't talk to him as my kids were there.

So i am back to trying to find the right time at the same time that i have the courage.

I am off to the city tonight to meet up with Studbud and spend the night down there and go out. I am really looking forward to it...it will be so much fun.

I just read back through my entries and realised that I haven't mentioned the most important thing that has happened to me in the past four months...i rekindled my friendship with an old school buddy. I found him on Myspace and sent him a message. We were great friends at school, never boyfriend/girlfriend but great mates.

AFter our little emails to each other we found out that we still only live about 20 minutes from each other, so he called into my work in December to see me, we figured it has been about 15 years. This guy always had a crush on me at school but we ended up just friends as i didn't want to go there.

Anyway the attraction between us when he turned up at work was "unreal", he is so nice and omg it was great seeing him again.

We msg each other most days now and talk on phone every couple of days. He is fully aware of MD and what is going on. The thing between us is nothing as he is married, has a beautiful daughter (13).

He is not happy in his marriage and tells me that it will eventually end in divorce, but i am not getting involved in that...it is just nice having someone to talk to.

I hope deep down he can work things out with his wife, and he does too.

He hasn't told his wife we talk as she would hate it, so that makes me uncomfortable and I know that i am doing exactly what MD has done to me in the past with his female friends, but I dont want to lose CJ again....we have this great communication thing.

So that is that...

So tomorrow i travel to Melb to meet Studbud and spend a fun filled girls weekend in city, eating, shopping, drinking, eating, shopping, dancing oh did I mention shopping...anyway it will be a nice break away from life here.