So whats New !!!!

Things haven't changed much for me in the last few weeks.
I have decided to join a new gym and I start on Friday, so im a little concerned that i wont be fit enough, it may actually kill me. lol.

I have fallen behind in my study and I am going to try and get on tonight and catch up. I really need to do this, i have worked too hard to just fail this semester.

Money wise i am broke, really broke. I have decided to never ever go to poker machines again, i keep going each week in the hope that i will have a win, but looking back i have put way too much money into them and I really haven't had that many wins. So i am now a reformed gambler.

Other then the above things are the same. I got drunk on Friday night and in my drunken stupor i started whinging about the "relationship" ( i use that term loosely), that me and MD have and I wish i hadn't done that. A couple of friends were with us and they new exactly what i meant and they understood how i felt, but there was nothing they could say. MD is always going to be a single guy.

He is planning a trip over to USA next year with his mates, that has pissed me right off as it was only like three months ago we were discussing how we are going to take kids up to queensland for a holiday (we have never taken them anywhere together). Now it looks like i will be taking them ALONE again - as usual.

He is a single guy and basically i am a single parent, just sleeping with him. When am i going to wake the fuck up and piss this guy off for good.